Well Now

I have shared some of my desk calender with you, the casual reader, in the past.  Yesterday's page was rather cool (if not terribly practical).  It provided an over view of how to leap from a motorcycle to a car.  Now you may ask why is this cool?  Well because according to the calendar, both vehicles should be traveling at speed down an highway :)

Granted, I am unlikely to ever actually attempt this (my life insurance policy explicitly excludes "acts of extreme stupidity") but still it is a very cool thing to know how to do - if only in the theoretical.  I have decided, however, to never take any of these pages home and let Noah get his hands on them  ;)

blessings on your day

Never Surrender

My play list on my iPod seems to be stacked just right today :)  Yet another one that really touched me.

Never Surrender
by Skillet

[V1]
Do you know what it's like when
You're scared to see yourself
Do you know what it's like when
You wish you were someone else
Who didn't need your help to get by
Do you know what it's like
To wanna surrender

[Chorus]
I don't wanna feel like this tomorrow
I don't wanna live like this today
Make me feel better
I wanna feel better
Stay with me here
And never surrender

[V2]
Do you now what it's like when
You're not who you wanna be
Do you know what it's like to
Be your own worst enemy
Who sees the things in me I can't hide
Do you know what it's like to wanna surrender

[Bridge]
Make me feel better
You make me feel better
You make me feel better
Put me back together

VOTD

"For I cried out to him for help, praising him as I spoke."

Psalm 66:17, NLT

All You Got

All You Got
by Tait

I heard you say that no one seems to care ‘bout you
It’s in your eyes, you think that life’s unfair to you
Just give it all you got, my friend
Just give it all you got, it’s not the end

CHORUS
Cause you oughta know
There’s a reason for these changin’ seasons
God only knows how much your heart can bear
So don’t you let go
Everybody has their up and down times
Everybody needs to know how much they’re loved
My friend
So hold on, it’s not the end

As I remember everything you touch
Would turn to gold
You held the secrets
To make your grandest dreams unfold
You were the very best of us all
But the sun that rises still falls

CHORUS

It’s just a love song
Cause everybody needs a friend
I’ll be right here for you
Just a simple prayer
It’s from the bottom of my heart
That He’ll never let you go

CHORUS

What is next?

I find it hard to blog these days, the emotional roller-coaster of buying/selling a house is draining.  From the emotional high last week of thinking it was a done deal to the despair of feeling like it will never happen - and every emotion in between.  I have come to the point that I am not even sure of what God's will or plan is in regards to the whole process.  As much as I pray for ultimate enlightenment all I hear is "wait and trust Me."  The end result is that I feel off balance and uncertain most of the time.  It is hard to have hope when you don't know what direction you will be traveling.  This of course is exactly what trusting is about.

I struggle daily with trusting in God to make things work out - well this isn't quite true.  What I really struggle with is not knowing if what I heard from Him (to go ahead and sell the house) also translates into a sold house and a NEW house.  I recognize that God is in complete control of the process and there truly is nothing I can do to help things along.

I keep praying, reading the Word and do the best I can to go forward in the direction that seems to be the right one.

blessings on your day

VOTD

"Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise."

Hebrews 10:23, NLT

VOTD

"...let us go right into the presence of God with sincere hearts fully trusting him..."

Hebrews 10:22, NLT

No Deal

The buyer backed out of the deal - no sale  :(

Today on my lunch break, I had a pretty significant "God Time."  I started out by sitting in my car and pondering how difficult things have been in our selling/buying a house process.  I could write pages enumerating our tribulations, frustrations and disappointments.  I started praying and (once again) turned it all over to God.  We always knew (and said) that God needed to be in control of the situation as it was too complex and we wanted to end up in exactly the right house as well as selling ours to the right people.

After spending a few minutes in prayer, I flipped open my Nook and loaded the NLT bible that I have been reading.  I am in the middle of Exodus right now - and the chapter I started today opened with Exodus 19 where the Lord reaffirms His covenant with Israel and promises to lead them to the Promised Land.  Within moments, I got a text message from my real estate agent telling me that the counter offer had been verbally accepted.  Less than an hour later we got a call from the housing development offering to put a "lock" on the single, remaining lot available that would have the model we wanted - at the cheapest elevation and with no lot premium (regardless of the fact that we consider it one of the more premium locations).  The picture above is of the same model elsewhere in the development.

Praises be to the One who sits on the throne!

Failure is not an option

One of my deepest fears is the fear of failure.  It has controlled much of my life, driven my strongest reactions and influenced most of my decisions.  At times I am convince that I have no value, that I will never succeed and that I am incapable of being who God asks me to be.  Slowly, over time, I am learning that this is a lie from the enemy.  I am not saying that there are not time that I fail - they have been many and some have been spectacular.  This does not define who I am nor is it the pattern for my life.

Being a Christian is about being forgiven.  God's grace and mercy are what defines us and gives us the chance for a new pattern.

blessings on your day