Relationships can be hard, messy and painful. This is even more true if you are a hard-core introvert. For me, being relational takes energy - this is not a bad thing necessarily, but it s something that plays into how I relate to people. Right now my relationships with my kids are either broken or totally missing. I am working 2 of them actively, trying to reconnect, repair and rebuild. Two of them are about where they were (afaik) which isn't saying much. The other 4 are broken - possibly for a long time.
The broken ones are the ones I dwell on the most. I am constantly second guessing, analyzing and trying to change what is already passed. I miss my children and that, above all else, is what I regret the most. I have left a trail of broken relationships that spans 4 decades (or more).
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